I felt like writing ( a feeling faint but welcome) and I thought what better place to do so than a blog I almost forgot about. I have been thinking a lot about what it means to be a woman in this society we have created, which in hindsight was the reason I created this blog in the first place.
However,as I tried to find the words and a way to organize everything it meant to be a woman, I realized I first had to understand what it means to be human, and how that process has/is changing. You see, everything it means to be a real woman is subjective to the influences of the culture around her- and in THIS culture you have a jumble fuck of lost messages leaving a generation to be nothing but just that, a jumble fuck of lost messages.
Trying to define anything in a culture where definitions no longer exist (everything is left to interpretation) is like trying to rub one stick together to make fire, and even if you manage to break the stick into two separate pieces; you are left with such short ends that inevitably you'll just end up burning yourself in the process. When what you needed the whole time was another stick all together. But instead of searching for new tools we continually build the same things with the same tools and have the same dumb look on our faces when we fail, again.
We blindly march where we are told to march, buy what we are told to buy, watch what we are told to watch, SEE what we are told to see, say what we are told to say and WORSHIP who we are told to worship. We have placidly accepted the same doctrines that tore us down in the first place- to the point we dont even mind mocking our damn selves. We hold others to levels of accountability that we dont even hold ourselves to......
......I'm getting off track......
See, at first I wanted to write this as a living 'how-to' guide, a collection of ' do this's or dont do' this kind of assortment. But I've realized that while I can give you the dots, I cant connect them for you, and yet and still my collection of dots may not be the collection u need to draw the same conclusions. What I mean is, your path is not mine and vise versa, and whatever it takes to for any one individual reach their full potential is divine. What that being said I have decided to use this forum as more of a journal, chronicling my experiences, observations and analysis I see as they unfold and inviting you to draw the conclusions as you may.
To assign actual words to a concept solidifies it in a way that cannot be undone. For me to try and conceptualize everything it means to be a woman in today's society could never be fully justified as this concept is ever changing and ever evolving (I surly hope). My goal here is through my own candidness of interpersonal dialogue about the true seeds of my culture's insecurities and short comings- perhaps some will feel comfortable to explore these things on their own levels...I just wanna make you think. You don't have to think like me, in fact I welcome those who dont, for this paves the way for conversation and growth on BOTH our parts. I called us a jumble fuck of lost messages, never did I say that ALL the messages were good or even necessary; yet in still they are lost- I would prefer to find them all, place them on the table and be allowed to at least sort through them, not be force fed the ones someone else thought were relevant.
I'mma call this phase of my experiment - the seek and recover phase.
